Eclipse vs. Bible

It is ridiculous how many little girls, teenager girls, and women are obsessed with Eclipse.

I like the movies but I think its a bit ridiculous.

No one should obsess over a movie like the girls do with this saga.

Wouldn't it be awesome if girls and women would freak out over the Bible.

Wouldn't be cool if that became a movie and there were tons of girls calling in to get tickets two weeks ahead of time.

Yeah it would be cool, but will that happen?

Probably not.

Frustration

I am very frustrated.

My dad is in the ER yet again.

He is being taken to Toledo hospital so I guess this is serious.

His blood pressure is super high, he keeps getting sick, and has a massive migrane.

It's scary and I have people here for me, but I'm missing one very important person.

Im sick of being worried and having heart ache.

I am sick of missing people and things.

I am frustrated and just need to get away from everything...

Beyond.

Live it out.

Christ came to die for us so we should live for him.

At beyond 4 girls came to know Christ and 1 recommited her life to him in my cabin.

It was hard at first but by the end I loved it, just like last year.

The band was awesome, and had awesome people.

My impact group was hard to deal with but as individuals i loved them all.

It was beneficial to me as well because I have grown stronger in my faith and now have knew relationships with girls.

I really hope to keep close the them and to be an encouragement.

Beyond10 was a great one.

By far, better than last year.

Unequality

Long distance sucks and so does my dad's health.

I cant stand these phone calls.

I don't feel the love i thought we had.

I don't feel I'm given the effort i put forth back at me.

I don't know how much more I can take.

My heart aches.

"Lifes not fair"...

but this is a relationship.

It's suppose to be equal.

I guess not.

So I have learned to be somewhat content.
I know everything is on God's timing and thats what I need to focus on.
I want to be far away under big city lights but thats not where I am wanted right now.
For some odd reason God wants me kept in this small town and I am not sure why...
Is it because my dad is going through kidney failure, dialisis, and needs a new kidney?
Is it because I am suppose to be a small group leader and help middle school girls?
Is it because I am suppose to save some cash by keeping my job?
I don't know what reasons God is keeping me here for sure but its all in His timing.

I still feel the city calling my name,
and I still feel the love for the poor and homeless.
But for now I guess I'll use my helping hands for the people around here.
I need to keep my head up, and my love for God strong.