Dear God,

I need your strength.
I need your patience.
I need your guidence.
Help me Lord.
So much is being thrown at me.
Freedom yet rules.
I don't understand what is going on.
I'm told one thing for awhile then it changes in an instance.
Love or Money?
I want love Lord.
I want to love life and everything in it.
I don't need money to live a happy life.
Please change some hearts and let them realize thats not what life is about.
I'm not going to be a bum the rest of my life,
I just want to be able to make decisions for myself.
I don't want to be forced to do everything.
I need to live for myself and for you.
So Lord will you please guide me.
Will you please change some hearts.
Let them know I love you and them.
Let them know that life isn't about money and being comfortable.
Whats meant to happen will happen and I know that.
But Lord, I am so frustrated and I can hardly handle all of this.
I don't know what to say any more.
I can't speak because I'm scared.
I just don't wanna be judged anymore for everything I do.
I am eighteen and I know I am just eighteen but I've learned a lot.
I am ready to make decisions on my own.
Please teach them that.
I still need their guidence and yours more than anything.
Just help change their hearts.
They need to realize I am growing up and I don't need them to make decisions for me.
I have to grow up on my own to a point.
Help me Lord.
You know all the details.
You know my heart.
You know their hearts.
Please help change our hearts.
Help me to be patient, kind, loving, and respectful.
Help them to realize whats important in life...and thats you.
You are the most important thing and sometimes even I forget.
But Lord this life means nothing once we die.
And whether I am rich or poor doesn't matter.
And Lord thats what I want them to realize.
Being happy and in love with you and life is far better than being miserable but comfortable in money.

I love you Lord.
Please help me and them.

I love you.
Amen.