Content.

I will be content.
I will be content.
I will be content.

That is what I'll do.

Patience.

Im caught inbetween the past and the future.
I don't know what direction I'm going.
I'm not sure what God wants with my life.
So far I like how things are.
Right now, it feels so right.
If its meant, it will be.
TIl then, I'll be praying for patience.
I'll have joy in hope.
And hopefully God will grant me peace.

It will all work out.

yes.

in love.

Sea of Feelings

Dear God,
Help me get my mind in the right place.
Help me put you first.
Above all things.
You are number one and the most important thing in my life,
I am just having problems showing it.
I am in so far deep Lord.
I am alright with it to a point.
But I need help cause I'm not focused on your timing.
I need to be patient.
I need to wait on you.
Lord help me while im stuck in this sea of feelings.
My heart races.
My chest pounds.
Help me.
I want this but I know its not the right time.
Help calm the storm thats inside of me.
I know for a fact you can do it.
You can do anything.
And I trust you.
I love you Lord,

Amen

Let me GO!

I was so happy.
Everything seemed like it was going great.
Then its changes like life always does.
I can't take it anymore.
However I know God doesn't give us anything thats too big for us.
I really need to give this to God.
I have been praying a ton lately.
I know that He makes everything better.
I am just struggling because I can't hear him.
I wish I could literally hear him speak to me,
because I have no idea what I am suppose to do.
I am struggling.
I am hurting.
They don't get it.
They don't see what I want with life.
They don't like what I want with life.
I don't know how to just tell them to get over it.
I've always been told that I can do anything I put my mind too.
Now it's like they won't let go.
I am eighteen and its time for me to grow up.
Move on.
But they won't let me.

He loves.

Oh how He loves us.
I just don't understand why.
but Oh how He loves us.
I am so glad he does.
I'd be lost and I'd be nothing with out him.

Cluttered Mind.

I cannot get you off my mind.
This time I swear it's different.
Dreams.
Maybe this will work.
I hope its God will.
If not, its something I will have to be okay with.
But this just seems to perfect.
My best friend.
I guess I will find out in time.

So much is going on, yet so little is happening.
The world is spinning so fast all around me.
My mind.
Has never felt so worked.
Happy things, frightening things, so many things inside.
Scared, Sad, Happy, Love, so much.
Time.
It will heal all things, right?

Til then...

My own inception

I am lost in life trying to figure out dreams from reality.