Gross.

I had a decent amount of money saved up and its all gone thanks to college.
I'm not even taking sweet classes.
Ugh...I'm not thrilled about college at all.

What A Year.

Christmas was fantastic.
I got far more than I needed but I'm not complaining.
It's cool that my parents and grandparents get me these things but sometimes I think they get the true point to Christmas. This year was a weird one as far as Christmas. I just thought about it differently. I thought of it from Mary's perspective. It made things more personal for me, I'm not really sure how to describe it. I can imagine being married and pregnant, but I cannot imagine being her and carrying our Lord and Savior. What an awesome and terrifying thing. Christmas was different this year.

I wasn't mad that I had to work on Christmas this year, I actually was full of smiles when I was at work. I got to see my family and then I got to hang with my best friends family. I love his family they are so simple and I absolutely love it.

It's almost the new year, I can't believe all that has happened this year...
I graduated high school, had my eyes opened to the real world, went on the best vacation I've ever been on, found someone I can depend on, lost a really good friend, made tons of friends, started going to a new church, I have had the chance to help out with worship at church which I've always dreamed of helping with. This year turned out great and I wouldn't change the way anything has happened.

I like...

Music, Photography, Hugs, starring at the stars with close friends, looking at the clouds, singing worship music and singing in general, kisses on the forehead, necklaces and bracelets, popcorn, watching movies, fuzzy pajama pants, guitars and nice voices, curly hair, pretending jesus is slow dancing with me, the color blue, the office, eating fruit, looking at all the picture frames in the picture frame aisle at Walmart, shopping with fun people, singing in the car, long car rides with close friends, concerts, pianos, editing photos, listening to a guitar playing when I'm ready to fall asleep, ice skating, skiing, learning new things about technology, anything made by apple, having blue eyes, wearing sweaters, wearing band T-shirts with baggy jeans, getting to know people, staying up super late, having just one person i share my entire life story with, I like having lots of friends, eating at dennys after 11pm, being by myself when I am at home, having a friend around me a lot of the time, back-massages, curling my hair, and watching the snow fall.

Bitter yet Sweet

I have the best friend in all the world.
He took me to a Relient K concert and it was wonderful.
The car ride there and back was delightful.
The cold was bitter but it was sweet spending time with my dear friend.
The music was so splendid and beautiful to my ears.
It was a good night and a great Christmas gift.
I am so thankful.

Not Hate.

I don't hate my family.
And its not that i dislike my family I'm just ready to grow up.
Not that I'm ready for all the responsibilities,
but I am tired of being treated like a child.
I want to be able to make decisions for myself.
I want to be out of this house and out living life.
I'm tired of living here.
Most of the people I graduated with are off at college.
They get to move out and move on with their lives.
It's what you do when you turn 18 or graduate.
Thats what I want...
Oh well.

My Goal...

I will sing in church,
I will.
Someday.

Exhaustion and Relient K

So I should be getting ready for work, but I'd rather blog.

Wednesday is going to be the best day ever!
Gabe is taking me to see Relient K on they acoustic Christmas tour in Akron!!
Its one of the best gifts given to me for Christmas.

I am working two jobs now,
I'm getting exhausted from it.
I'm ready for a break already.
But guess what,
I start school in January..Ha.

I will need to be leaning on the Lord far more than I am right now.
Speaking of that...
I really miss Jesus,
I used to spend so much time with him day to day,
and now I hardly ever do.
I miss reading his Word.
I really need to get back with it...

a snowflake on your cheek.

its almost christmas.
i feel like all the world has forgotten the meaning.

whatever.
this world is screwed up.
and i just dont know anymore.
life has given me a headache.
whats wrong and whats right?
all i know is Jesus loves me no matter what.
And Christmas is about his birth..not the gifts, music, or trees.
I am really tired of christmas trees.
I am biased tho, there are four in my house.
They are up at the beginning of November and it drives me nuts.
Why can't we wait til december.
Whatever lifes complicated.
I will be out of here before i know it.