Good Lord,

You are so awesome.
Thank you for blessing me with people who care about me.
Help everything to get straightened out and help me figure things out with my car.
Lord help me with my new friendships.
I want to be pure and I want to keep you at the center of everything.
Lord, help keep me safe.
Help my friend and our friendship.
I don't really have much to say now but we need some help.
Help me to be more kind and loving Lord.
I want to be your light.

Help me with this day,
and help me to do well at all I do.

I love you.

Dear God,

I'm so overwhelmed right now.
So many people want so many things from me.
My time is limited.
I'm only nineteen and im starting to get scared.
My friend isnt being honest wit me and thats all i want.
I just want things to be right.
If people would just talk to me I would understand things would be ok.
Wheres the communication.
I'm so upset.
I want to cry.
:(
Lord, give me strength.
I need you more.
Atleast I have a few blessings in my life to keep me sane.
Thank you Lord.
I don't want people upset with me.

I love you father.

My Jesus,

Thank you for my life.
And the people you have brought me.
I haven't been this happy in a long time.
Thank you for showing me new things,
and making me realize I can survive.
Continue to help me.
I need your help still,
I can't do this on my own.
Help me to be patient.
Help me to stay pure.
Help me to stay close to you the whole way.

I love you Lord.

:)

Lord you have blessed me.
I love you.
Thank you for these new people.
Thank you for bringing me to people who actually love me back.
God, I am so happy.
Thank you for getting me through these hard times.
Help me to keep looking up,
staying positive,
and smiling.

I love you,
a happy child of God

Oh Lord how I love you.
I am a child of God.
I am so happy to be Your child.
In 1 John it speaks about love and how to love is to be of God and when we don't love we aren't from God. Also as I was reading it said how if we are from God then we practice righteousness. Which makes sense because when you are in a relationship with God you want to do right, you don't want to sin any longer because that is lawlessness. I want to be a pure and righteous child of God. I want what he wants and that is what I think that 1 John is making that point. When you truly want God you want to be like Him. Pure like him.
I want to be pure like Jesus.
Lord, make me pure like you.
Help me to do right,
to love everyone.
Let you light shine through me.

Dear Lord,

Seriously I can not thank you enough for how much you have been blessing me.
I feel like I am myself again.
I am happy and smiley.
I've missed being this person, Jesus.
Lord, now that I think of it I am such a sinner and I don't even deserve this but you are good.
Thank you Lord for these people you have brought to my life.
I know its happened for a reason and I know its a good one.
Help me to remain patient and content.
I am so excited, Lord for all the new things happening.
I finally found people who really love having me around.
And have finally found a person that believes the same things as me.
Lord, you are so cool and I love you.
I can't believe how much my life has changed and its only been one month.
A september month.
Fall is bringing new things, and Lord thank you so much.

I love you,
Your Child Corrine

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for the honesty.
Thank you for this time.
Thank you for this change.
Thank you for this chance.
Lord, I thank you so much.
Help me to not rush this.
Help me to find happiness in the little things.
Let me be content in everything to come.
Thank you for the new friends you have given me.
Thank you for tying all so many people and events together.
You are an awesome God.
You love me.
Thank you, for what you did for me.
Help me to stay faithful through all of this.
I love you.

Sincerely,
Your content child.

Lord,

Thank you for giving me reasons to smile today.

Sincerely,
Your happy Child

Thank You Father...

So I read by blogs from last night,
and Lord you answered my prayers.
You did give me hope.
I can live with out it.
There will always be a place in my heart,
but its time to move on from the old things.
A new season has come.
I am learning new things now.
This will be an adventure.
It might work out,
it might not.
I want to make this as pure and Godly as I can.
It's a way i can start over.
I realized tonight that I can be comfortable.
Its not just with the one.
I can move on.
I can.
Lord, just help me to do this the right way.
Don't let me rush into things,
dont let me get ahead of my self.
Let me heal myself fully.
Lord heal me fully.
Help me to be able to be around it and be okay.
Help me to find my satisfaction in You.
Lord thank you for this new blessing.
I think I have been blessed with this new thing for a reason.
Lord thank you for showing me that there are others.
Thank you that I don't have to feel stuck anymore.

Sincerely,
Your thankful child

Dear Father,

I can't sleep.
I can't shut my brain off.
I can't get this worry to leave me.
God, help me.
I am so helpless.
I can't do this letting go or change with out your help.
Please poor your love all over me.
Shine your light through the people I'll be around tomorrow,
and the days to come.
I need reasons to be happy,
I need to know that there's hope.
Help me to have faith.
I know that you will come through,
I know that you are God and that I should trust you.
Just help me to have the strength to trust you in this.

Please help.

Sincerely,
Your Lost Child

P.S. Thank you for all the new blessings you have put in my life. It's nice to know theres still a hope in finding real love and friendship. I'm excited for the new things in my life, I'm just afraid to losing the old things forever. You know best though Father, give me the wisdom and courage to get through this season of life.

Starting a new Season

I am laying here in a familiar bed.
Somethings missing.
My heart is a little empty.
My stomach is aching a bit.
Life is changing.
Part of it feels good,
but I feel like I"m losing so much.
I can't tell if its for the better or not.
When I'm not around this place or these people life is great.
I don't worry.
But when I come back to this I become worried of what I am losing.
I feel like what I am losing is what already has been lost.
It was just for a season,
and some was good but some was bad.
I wish it didn't have to end this way.
I wish there was a different way to go.
I've met some new people and have been to new places.
I am kind of excited for this new journey,
but when i think of this past year it hurts so much.
I don't want this to end,
but it seems it already has.
Guess its time to start this new season in my life.
Time to let go.

in this hour

I wrote a song and a half.
I am in love.
With my guitar that is.
Things are changing,
I think its for the better.
I'm content for this hour.

I dont know why I am still here.
I don't know why I keep doing this to myself.
I am just hurting my self.
No good comes out of this except for the nice things I do.

Lost my tie.

I want to go on a road trip some where.
I'm bored with it here.
And I only like one of my jobs.
The other is made more stressful than it needs to be.
(its the managers, not me)
I hope I go camping again this summer.
It's one thing I am looking forward to.
I can't wait for it to be warm,
I want to hang out by my pool and just absorb the sun.
I also want a bike.
I want to strengthen my legs and I don't wanna spend money on gas.

I lost my tie for work...
I hope I find it cause I dont know what I'm going to do.

A lot is on my mind...
I really wanna go somewhere thats not here today.
Just a trip away for the day.

Chest Pains

So many things on my mind.
I think its this weather that is doing this to me.
I feel depressed but nothing is seriously wrong.
I am stressed about some little things but I dont know.

i feel depressed.
and my chest hurts.

Jesus you endured my pain

I learned a song on guitar and I can sing it too.
Its not extremely smooth but :)

Worship.

So I run the computer at church on sunday mornings.
One of these days tho I want a break.
I want to be able to sing and worship without worrying if I missed a slide or not.
I love singing and worshiping God,
Its really difficult to do that when you are preoccupied by something.
Oh well there will be other Sundays with great music right?
I guess I just really wanna sing.
One day I want to be up front showing people what worship can be.
You don't have to just stand there and do nothing.
Worship is you and God.
I worship with hands raised, eyes closed, and sometimes I just move to the music.
I guess it could be different for other people,
but I mean music is powerful and I can't imagine standing there and worshiping God.
It wouldnt express how I really feel enough.
I dont know, that was a jumbled mess I know.

Also worship isnt music, its living for the Lord and doing things for him.
But music is a huge connection and expression of the way we feel for the Lord and what we want.
Thats why I am so passionate towards this kinds of worship.

Dennys.

So I'm sitting here at dennys.
I am enjoying it.
I'm alone, yet I don't feel alone cause their are people all around.
It's weird and I'm not sure why I enjoy it so much...
but its pleasant.
I had a salad and like three or four hot chocolates.
Eileen is waiting on me, and shes the best.
Thats all.

Music and Photos

Saturday my best friend is having a show at a coffee shop.
I am so excited.
I love his music and he is so gifted.
I hope everything goes well for him.
I know he will do so many great things in his life.

As for me...
I hope I can do something with my photography.
I'm not the greatest photographer out there,
but some people like it.
I'm only 18 so I have time to get better.

I am angry.
I am upset.
I wish I could change over night.
I try to change but then people don't give me a chance.
I'm frustrated.
I just want to change...

Music Photography

I emailed some bands.
I hope they have a photographer I can talk to.
I so want to shadow someone.
See what it would like to be a music photographer.
Gosh I hope an opportunity arrises.
I shall be praying.

Loner.

I think right now my struggle is just getting used to the way life is or is going to be.
I like being busy and being with people, but I guess I have to learn that life isn't like that.
I can't depend on people and I must depend on God.
I don't know if my "best friend" is always going to be there.
Right now it doesn't feel that I even have one.
So I guess I need to learn to be a "loner".
To be satisfied with being by myself.
I mean hey I get more time with God right?
Oh the things that happen when you "grow up".

Long

It's going to be a very long day.
It going to be a long week...
God help me.
I can't lose this.
You know my desires.
You know my strengths and weaknesses.
Please help me,
I can't do this alone.

Work

I think my second job is going to grow on me.
I don't enjoy it as much as I do the movies.
But either way jobs get old.
However God provided me with these jobs,
and I shouldn't complain because many people don't have jobs...
and i have two.
So God is good.
I think I will get enough down time I hope.
I'm kinda nervous for the future but I know God has control.

Alone.

I think I am getting better at being alone.
It's kind of enjoyable.
I get a lot accomplished.
I still love being with people,
but it's also nice being by myself.
I don't enjoy dealing with difficult people,
not that anyone really does.
I think I've really grown to dislike dealing with people because of my job.
But I will learn patience.
Right now though,
It's nice learning to be alone.
I get a lot more time to be intimate with God.

I was going through old blogs and geez I am so emotional...
But I'm a girl so i guess it fits.
I need to find a way to be content.
I know I will only find contentment through Jesus.
I mean I can't be truly happy if I am always pushing Him aside,
yet I still seem to shove him to the side.
I know things will get better, I know it will take a lot of time to get used too.
I just need to be patient but as many have said,
hardship comes with patience.
It is so true.
I feel like I've just been swamped with everything.
My job takes me away from people I love,
School will soon consume my free time,
my other job isn't very enjoyable and also time consuming...
I need to spend more time with God,
I miss just digging into His Word.
But I have very limited free time and when I am free I want to see people.
Thats another thing, I need to work on being alright on my own.
I am far too relational but thats how God wired girls right?
I just want to be around people all the time.
Well not just any people but the people I really love.
I'd rather be with someone than by myself.
Thats how a lot of people are right?



Gosh I have a lot of praying to do cause I need some guidance and love...

stupid

I am so sick of life.
I am sick of being busy and not time to see any one.
I can't relax at home and i dont know why.
I don't want to waste my life.
I hate working all the time and going to school
I'm just unhappy.

Captivating.

Ever since my friend Gabe started his worship leading job it takes us a half hour to get to church. When we first started going we would have to leave around sunrise. Ever since then I have found the sky so captivating. In the mornings the sun is so beautiful and the clouds with the oranges its so beautiful. At sunset the sky is one big rainbow. I love the sky. God is so beautiful. Captivating.

My Guitar and I

I am so happy to be involved with music again.
I know I've written about this before but I missed it so much. I am in the process of learning guitar and I've already created some diddys with the few chords I know. I love my guitar but one day I want a Taylor :) My fender will do for now though. I want to know more and more. Now I only wish I had a great voice but oh well I suppose. Maybe one day I'll get better. As for now I will keep playing and praising the Lord for all He's given me!

Nick Nick.. N-N-Nick Nick-e-lo-deon!

I miss the days when Rocket Power was the most exciting thing on tv.
Thanks to netflix I can watch some of the cartoons i grew up watching.
Pretty exciting.
I just wanted to share.

Dot Dot Dot

New Years wasn't at all what i thought it was going to be.
But i think that every year i think its going to be amazing,
an it always turns out that theres something that doesn't work out...