Starting a new Season

I am laying here in a familiar bed.
Somethings missing.
My heart is a little empty.
My stomach is aching a bit.
Life is changing.
Part of it feels good,
but I feel like I"m losing so much.
I can't tell if its for the better or not.
When I'm not around this place or these people life is great.
I don't worry.
But when I come back to this I become worried of what I am losing.
I feel like what I am losing is what already has been lost.
It was just for a season,
and some was good but some was bad.
I wish it didn't have to end this way.
I wish there was a different way to go.
I've met some new people and have been to new places.
I am kind of excited for this new journey,
but when i think of this past year it hurts so much.
I don't want this to end,
but it seems it already has.
Guess its time to start this new season in my life.
Time to let go.